sigh why does the girl i have the faintest interest in seem to jilt me after 3 months of added her twice in facebook?

actually, its a HUGE infatuation.

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i've been religiously controlling my diet, intaking only protein (less carbohydrates), exercising regularly, pumping iron selectively. i think im gonna hit top shape in less than a month ;) you know, the quintessential metrosexual--astute, lean and toned.

70 KGS ! wow, im amazed at my goal. from a hefty 83 kg pre-enlistment to 70 kgs.

next, a plan for more sinew, V-Shaped sculpt and abs ;)

like this?

im sure this will get the girls swooning, you know, they love to hanker over a well hung and chiselled body. haha

in this life have you encountered people known as, "naysayers"? people who have unequivocally condemned your efforts since the very beginning, without even evaluating the situation. they have no idea of your dreams, absolutely no idea of your goals, let alone how badly you want to get it.

enough of these people, really. for 104 years, people said it cannot be done. yet, Barack Obama became the first black, at 28 years old to be elected as head of the Harvard law review. there are so many, innumerable precedents that have done it. from van Gogh, Galileo, Michaelangelo, Einstein, to contemporary leaders like LKY, Chinese Taikonauts lauching the Shenzhou VII yesterday.

are you going to let naysayers affect your life? just look at today's new paper. NUS reject turned Oxbridge Masters and Princeton PhD.

i find it laughable. critics often bite off more than they chew.

so this is what's left of 2so3w after i left.

it was great while it lasted ;)

time flies, isnt it? the previous second i was whinging about NS, the nitty-gritty, nuts and bolts of the entire, in my opinion, flawed system. the very next moment, emancipation beckons in 50 days?

so much has happened since i left JC, yet it all seem like yesterday. the sights and sounds of the hall, the innumerable but beneficial chapels that had been preached, the pretty girls with skirts at tantalising lengths. all these experiences are surreal.

and then you think it through: the jungle, POP, australia, India, Tekong, so many countless events. all of these pieced up tautly to formulate this present moment. people had perished, my friend's mom has, unfortunately passed away, i made so many new affable brothers. these incidents have given me an epiphany. it has evoked in me the temporality of life, of moments, no matter how shitty, no matter how pulchritudinous it may seem. that first kiss, that first hug, or for some of you, that first making out, all zoomed pass by...

and that, my friend, is the beauty of memories. it has that element of wistfulness, of wishing you could relive that moment again, wishing time could stand still...

why did i type this? well i cant explain myself sometimes. maybe its the tranquility of the night, the cool air and a lil' dose of coldplay =)

i have a rendezvous with destiny.

that date is : 071208.

i've got a series of missions to accomplish, pronto.

this, i deem, as coerced volunteer work. some sinister scheme, subversive, conniving, utterly devoid of human feelings.

this, to deceive the public for greater good.

my mind is torn asunder from fatigue, total deprivation of sleep. its not the physical toll, its the mental perseverance.

somehow, i know we will be stronger.

WHY IS IT TO HARD TO JIO THIS PRETTY GIRL FROM MY JC WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :(:(

SO HARD LOL. I TRIED ALL MY CHARM ALL MY WIT ALL MY WISECRACKS.

damnit. shes the dream girl.

im riding on the crest of life ;)

love you all loads ;)

And in the end
We lie awake, and we dream of making our escape

And in the end
We lie awake, and we dream of making our escape

this insane epiphany. coldplay, dota, reading through blogs of yesterday, of the days of yore. acjc, a levels, dreams of rjc, new town. every single fuck thing resonated in my mind. and now army. these 20 months of pure detachment, solitary and hermetic living in a faraway camp in the west.

i had a great time in ac. memories that still burn within my soul. all these things, in a twinkling of the eye, transmogrified into nothingness.

life, its simple to live it, really.

embrace your life to the fullest, and i mean every single word of it.